Happy October

 Oh how I love the fall ::  but alas I am so sad. I haven’t even taken the time to enjoy it! Sooo for family night we bundled our bundle of joy and went a pumpkin picking.

:: Our little dude ::

Emerson Kigan Martineau

 I have started this post so many times. Not sure how to express my feelings on labor and now motherhood. So many things occurred that have made me grateful for life, my new sweet baby and my husband. Labor was not easy, postpartum not easy, and but being a mom so priceless. I would not change a single thing. 

        Each day has been an improvement. By the way breast-feeding not as easy as I thought it would be, it's actually really hard! Natural smatural haha.... But I have not given up and Emerson hasn't either. We have finally connected and it has been much better lately. He is so patient with me! I actually really love it, the connection you establish is so amazing. Their sweet little faces and hands snuggled in. He holds my finger and it is so reassuring and tender. ;) Babies are a lot more durable than we give them credit for. I lived everyday and enjoyed each of Emerson's growth spurts, through those first six weeks. Even though that is the hardest time, I loved every minute I had with him.

        Emerson came out strong and ready to bear the weight of the world. He has such a vibrant spirit and is so peaceful and loving. He smiled at only 3 days old, and has been such a copycat ever since! I can't believe it has taken me this long to post. I just would rather spend my whole day snuggling with that little dude! I never realized how true a mother’s love is. Also mother’s intuition is so mind blowing to me at times! I know the spirit is with me and guides me to know what Emerson needs. I am so grateful for that. 

        It was an amazing experience that went by way too fast. I had the best nurses and dr.'s looking out for me, and wouldn't have changed a thing. I feel so spiritually connected with my Heavenly Father, and savior. I believe the veil thins just a little when you welcome a new baby on this earth. I know my grandmother was there with me, she is so special and I know she was with Emerson. It is a moment in time that will be dear to my heart. I will let the picture speak for themselves.... More to come now that I am on my game a little better....

Emerson Kigan Martineau

April 10, 2014

8lbs 12oz

21 inches 

Head full of hair, Auburn might I add... 

He has beautiful stormy eyes, and squish swollen little face. Had my heart wrapped around his finger the minute I met him, and his daddy's too.

....The wait is on....

     I thought for sure I would have this little guy by now... He likes his home too much! I have been trying to be so patient...but I am too excited to meet him! 

Alas as you can see April 1st came and went... I will admit it's been hard to not get discouraged in thinking I know my body better than I do. Or I'll be that exception where you have everything work out in the correct order...! 

All well, in keeping my head up... moms Kigan, and I have been going on long walks, curbing, little bits of jogging and a spicy meal ta boot. Guess our baby boy will come when he is good and ready, or so they say haha... 

// Just a few glam shots from our walks and the pretty delights of spring //

                        Cheese //

                    Mr photographer 👆

                     

                 Come on bebe 👶

Couldn't pass up this perdy house and flower tree 🌷🌸🌺

\\ Secretly I love being pregnant //

I'd like to preface this post with the fact that my husband and I are not professionals...and since my sweet best friend Chantel is not here, we had to make do. I would love to have my sexy man with me on a few of these photos but alas he is the eye behind the camera. 

Not to get on anyone's bad side but I struggle loving pregnancy photos, some of them are horrible and nobody wants to see that...or it's just too weird! Anyway I hope with these photos nobody feels uncomfortable... I love the more natural feel. Soooo I went with that.... 

Just a little update from Kigan and I, we are at 34 weeks now! Only six or so more to go... We were laughing the other day, because both of us got this feeling that the little guy just might come early... My last day of work is March 22nd, and then Kigan has a big Ethics Law exam on the 29th...soooo to our little dude if you come early my last day of work would be great...if not please hold on until Kigan finishes his exam. 

Also we are so stoked...Kigan has his last performance with mock trial this weekend up in New York! I am so over this hahaha and so is he.... I am so proud of him and all his hard work! 

So here's to pregnancy and the joys it adds to your lives! 

S N O W day

 I wish I could capture the full beauty that arrived over night...but this was the best I could do. It was so fun to actually have snow and not just a few inches a foot! I honestly didn't think the news was going to be right...since their track record has been... well, let's just saw off! Kigan was so sweet he got up with me this morning and cleaned off the car and started her up. I went out and it literally took me 10 minutes to go 2 feet rolling back and forth trying to get out of my parking space. Sooo even though I'm from Utah and have driven in ridiculous storms...I was forced to admit defeat. Calling into work, they were so nice and understanding, mostly they didn't want a 7 1/2 month pregnant women driving out in the crazy snow....but seriously if they plowed it wouldn't be that big of a deal. Needless to say, it was a nice snowy day off and I can't complain.